Myxomatosis

[Myxomatosis]

Walk this world alone try to stay on my feet
Sometimes crawl, fall
But I stand up ‘cause I’m afraid to sleep
And open by eyes to a new day

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[x] rebirthing [x]
Myxomatosis


[x] better than drugs [x]
Tom


[x] whispers in the dark [x]
Hinz 57/Mixed


[x] the older I get [x]
Adult

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With all new problems and all new pain
All the faces are filled with so much anger
Losing our dignity and hope from fear of danger
After all the wars, after settling the scores
At the break of dawn we will be deaf to the answers

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[x] looking for angels [x]
Myxomatosis is a large, muscular dark brown tom. His fur is a solid uniform color until you reach his face, which is broken by black tabby-isque markings. He is heavily scarred from the war. His left eye is dark amber-gold, and, because he is actually blind in his right eye, the right is a lighter, almost sun-gold.


[x] comatose [x]
Myxomatosis sometimes is thought to have multiple personalities, but that is not exactly the case. Depending on the situation he's in and his mindset, he sometimes slips into different "masks". The lighthearted rogue wanderer – and the cold executioner.. but they are all part of him. They are part of who he is. A tom with the weight of his sins on his shoulders and sorrow in his heart.

The executioner, however, is one part of himself that he is learning to
overcome. Upon leaving Wutaiclan, he learned it was his willingness to not value his own life that allowed that part of himself to well up inside him. Coming to realize he was did not want to die, enabled him to fight this part of him.

Many believe his murderous half was some brutal and heartless killer, but that is not the case. He IS Myxomatosis. He was greatly affected by what he was doing, but did it with the hopes of peace and the want to protect his clan. While he fell deeper into darkness, he never lost that wish, and his relationship with the kindly Salvationchain helped to pull him from the darkness.

Myxomatosis suffers from a lot of pain. He cannot forgive himself for the crimes he feels he committed during the war with Junonclan. Salvationchain's death, which he blames himself for, especially weighs down on his heavy heart. For twelve moons he has been wandering, trying to atone for his sins by helping other cats.

To hide this pain he slips into the mask of the foolish rogue. He comes
across clueless, accident prone, and even a little dumb.

However, he is also very sharp (though, not in all subjects...), clever,
and has very quick reflexes. The rogue is in part an act he puts on, to some degree at any rate, to try to detach himself from his darker past. As much as the stupid rogue is an act, there is still part of it that is himself as much as the executioner is.

He's very kind, caring and selfless to the extreme (although not according to Ninjaheart’s father, the current leader of Wutaiclan in who will be succeeded by Ninjaheart, who sees Myxomatosis's over-selflessness as being selfish, and in a way he is right). He is fiercely protective, especially of those he loves, and will defend them even at the cost of his own life. He also often takes on too much by himself. Wishing to take on all the burden, he tries to shut out those he cares about or anyone else who he feels should not get involved.

He is not without a sense of humor, however, and can even be sarcastic around certain cats who annoy him. (*cough*Silentmaw*cough* ) He enjoys simple things in life, like hunting or patrols.

He's also extremely polite and humble. The very way he talks shows this. He uses the honorific "-dono" (which is an archaic honorific that is more polite than -san) for many he knows, including Ninjaheart. This says a lot about Myxomatosis, and what he thinks of himself in comparison of others.

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There’s so much bigotry, misunderstanding and fear
With eyes squinted and fists clinched
We reach out for what is dear
We want it, we want…we want a reason to live
We’re on a pilgrimage, a crusade for hope
‘Cause in our hearts and minds and souls we know
We need it, we need…we need more than this

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[x] those nights [x]
‘Looking for Angels’ by Skillet (Album – Comatose)


[x] say goodbye [x]
Undone.


[x] falling inside the black [x]
The executioner of Wutaiclan; left before Ninjaheart and Photomortum ever did so to find atonement for his sins that he had committed during the Wutaiclan/Junonclan war.

Song titles/lyrics © Skillet.


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Going through this life looking for angels
People passing by looking for angels
Walking down the streets looking for angels
Everyone I meet looking for angels

Pray for your enemies, humble yourself
Love’s staring back at me
In the midst of the most painful faces
Angels show up in the strangest places